COLUMN: Chewing Pixels: 'Sex and Tetris'
August 7, 2008 8:00 AM |
['Chewing Pixels' is a regular GameSetWatch column written by British games journalist and producer, Simon Parkin. Here's a story about games led him to and from vice city.]
One, two, three, four fingers uncurl. I don’t see them because I’m past her window by now, but I hear them in the reaction of the beery men stood around.
“400 Euros?!" “She must be kidding”, “F***ing princess”, “She’d be lucky to get 40”
Albert Camus described Amsterdam’s concentric canals as being like the circles of hell, the crimes becoming denser and darker the more you progress through them. If that’s true then this girl’s huge 1st floor window advertising space stands at the fiery epicentre. She leans in, back arched, hand on knee, lingerie-clad hind in the air, eyes masked heavy with makeup and affected lust; four fingers uncurled.
These brutes, these heavy louts, are as much her tormentors as prospective lovers. They mask their disappointment at her prohibitive cost with loud, retorting undervaluations.
Prostitution, at least, of the kind offered in Amsterdam, is a game whose stakes include, perhaps more than anything else, self-esteem. It’s legal here so sellers can refuse clients in relative safety. Prices are adjusted on the fly: raised sky-high for the repulsive, kept reasonable for the reasonable.
So when a group of boorish British men are quoted 400 Euros for twenty minutes funtime it’s as much an attack on their self-esteem as their consequent rejection of the offer is on hers.
“She will only sell herself to me for how much?”
“He wouldn't even pay that?”
Halo 3. It’s a press trip and I'm here to play Halo 3, not sex tourist. I have wife and child and my desire to keep everyone happy in those roles mercifully outweighs any baser instincts right now. But go sightseeing in Amsterdam and these are the sights you'll inevitably see.
These are certainly the sights most of the assorted lifestyle press, here to write up a game they've at most a passing interest in, are here to see. Not that there's necessarily much to see that is. The event finishes early evening and everyone is shepherded out into the arms of the city.
Girls stand in shop windows in underwear and red light. It's sleazy but they appear as little more than animated mannequins, the likes of which stand in the most respectable department store window modeling knickers and supportive bras to all. It's not such a tortured analogy: both sell sex, one to middle age women on their way home from the weekly shop, the other to middle age men running away from whatever. But, of course, there's much more if you've eyes to see.
Without drugs or alcohol to soften the mind's focus, humanity and ruin spills from every crack. They try to keep it hidden because if you, just for a second, see one of these girls as a sister or a daughter, or catch a whiff of the desperation that has nine times out of ten brought them here, you'll want to sleep alone tonight.
But look and the clues are all around: the peeling wallpaper framing her figure, the half-eaten Chinese takeaway under her chair, the light on her thighs cast from a television set nestled and hidden between her feet, distraction for when she tires of fluttering endless promises to passers by. Occasionally a man will barter with a girl, convincing her to accept a lower price. The assembled crowd, caught up in the to-ing and fro-ing, will whoop and cheer as he enters the room and the curtains draw shut. But it's the quieter dalliances that haunt.
A girl opens her door a crack as a dark figure sidles up: she hand him a clutch of something, notes probably, and he recoils back to his watch-point. A coercive boyfriend, perhaps? A loan shark or a dealer; who knows, who cares? Another girl bursts from her room to scream bloody murder at two teenage boys loitering by a nearby trashcan. They've been taking camera phone pictures, she accuses, transformed from lithe siren to hissing, fizzing banshee. Truths behind the makeup. Truths behind the makeup.
At the end of my short walk there's a church. I'm sure, I hope, that its congregation work tirelessly to help those of their neighbours who are in need. But as a piece of raw architecture this church stands dark, tall and uninviting, peering down on the red glow, lusts and regrets from which it rises. It towers, an unlit, disapproving father figure, more cold, stony judgment seat than hospital for the soul.
I trace around its borders and start back to the hotel. These nether streets, tendrils from the scarlet epicentre, are where the niche hookers work: those of uncommon ethnicity, weight or looks. Those I look at beckon me, or stare back, but mostly I look at the pavement.
Then a glance into a final room: the last window in this confused voyeuristic tour that has been one part faint titillation, five parts deep melancholy.
She's eighteen, porcelain and God knows what horror stole her and sat her down on that chair. And in her petite, cross-legged lap, rests a DS. What game she's playing I've no idea: Tetris as a way to clean up the mess? Animal Crossing for the warm home and the sofa and the weeds that you can pull up? Advance Wars for the reliable rules, constant and dependable parameters rarely found in reality. Hmm. Probably she's just playing a game she really likes and there's no poetic significance for a sentimental writer to heavy-handedly wring from her choice.
Maybe she's happy and doesn't need saving. Maybe nothing broke her and she just really likes having sex for money and that is her contribution and she's thankful she can make that contribution in a place that offers some sort of safety and protection. I don't know. But just as nobody sets out wanting to make a bad game - stuff happens, choices are made or made for you and then that's where you end up - so I don't think any little girl sets out wanting to sell herself like this.
And she looks up slow, all stretched eyelashes and smiles, into the deep focus shadows outside at another prospective client.
And he looks back at her, and sees a sister.
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45 Comments
[quote]Without drugs or alcohol to soften the mind's focus, humanity and ruin spills from every crack. They try to keep it hidden because if you, just for a second, see one of these girls as a sister or a daughter, or catch a whiff of the desperation that has nine times out of ten brought them here, you'll want to sleep alone tonight.[/quote]
Very Very well written.
I know a guy who walked by the desk of a co-worker who was looking at some barely-legal porn. The guy I know looked at the other dude and said man, what if one of those girls you are looking at was your daughter. It at least made the other guy really think about himself.
Great article.
Awetopsy | August 7, 2008 9:29 AM
Given its wireless capabilities, I wonder if the DS gets used as an ad-hoc chat system so that people working in adjoining rooms can talk between seeing clients?
Dr. Curiosity | August 7, 2008 10:41 AM
This Games Journalism is so New it was written tomorrow.
Phat | August 7, 2008 11:31 AM
Is there any limit to GSW's capacity for self-indulgent pablum? Is there no editing at all?
DJH | August 7, 2008 12:56 PM
No need.
Phat | August 7, 2008 1:49 PM
I'm impressed. This is a very well written piece.
mee | August 7, 2008 11:11 PM
Instead of going back to his room and writing an essay of such unbridled pomposity, perhaps the author would have had a better time if he'd gone to the nearest ATM, withdrawn the 400 euros and had himself some fun.
Mart | August 8, 2008 2:50 AM
Ive have to say I am impressed, very well written.
I live near Amsterdam so ive seen it myself. Depends from your view point but it can be really bad.
Daniel | August 8, 2008 2:54 AM
The Red Light district is mostly a nesting place of obese drunken Brits who can't get laid at home. It's a tad sad really.
Luckily Amsterdam has much more to offer than hookers and soft drugs.
Good article.
Mischa | August 8, 2008 3:22 AM
Awesome piece. Goes much much further then just 'journalism'
Rik H | August 8, 2008 3:50 AM
Brilliant, brilliant and absolutely well written too!
gnome | August 8, 2008 3:59 AM
Summary of the article:
blahblahblabhalkbhalbhaprostitutionblahblahblah
oh yeah one of them was playing a ds
Bababoo | August 8, 2008 5:18 AM
well written piece that may not focus on gaming, but thats what gives it such brilliance. if we ever expect gaming to become "mainstream" and openly accepted then it has to be talked about in the same conversation and in relation to the real world. well done.
klusion | August 8, 2008 5:25 AM
I think its amazing that an author can look through a window and read minds like this! Why is he wasting his time writing about games! He should be working at the UN doing peace negotiations.
If he *really* wanted to write something of value, he would have spent the 400 Euros and spent his time interviewing the girl, asking how she felt about what she was doing, what her life was really like, etc.
As it stands now, it's banner-ad bait.
Pete S | August 8, 2008 5:46 AM
Nicely written article. The only thing wrong with it is that it takes a lecturing tone. Prostitutes while vulgar to most also serve a greater purpose of sexual release and fantasy for many people. Prostitutes get paid money and they aren't forced into the trade in Amsterdam. Ask yourself this. If you were to get rid of all the prostitution and pornography in the world would the world be a better place? It's the same as getting rid of all the Oil and cars in the world. Sure there would be less traffic and less pollution but nobody would see each other, nobody could travel, Prices would rise exorbitantly. If you got rid of pornography and prostitution I can gaurantee that human mental deficiencies would arise, rapes would rise a thousandfold. In the animal kingdom, rape is a natural part of selection. Good and evil are a human concept. If you you thought about your ancestry, you know that many rapes had most likely occurred in your lineage. without rape you would not have been born. Can you sit back and denounce great great great great grandfather jonas for raping your great great great great grandmother while breathing in the life that occurred from that? People think the holocaust is evil but imagine living with all the people that didn't die from it and all the people who didn't die from AIDS, Cancer and all that other stuff. The world would be even more unbearably overpopulated and it would be like Soylent green. It would be a malthusian catastrophe.
caligula | August 8, 2008 5:46 AM
"If he *really* wanted to write something of value, he would have spent the 400 Euros and spent his time interviewing the girl, asking how she felt about what she was doing, what her life was really like, etc."
But the piece isn't really about the girls at all. It's about the author, his hang-ups, how he works through his preconceptiosn and bias in the "maybe she's happy and doesn't need saving" paragraph and, ultimately, how he finds common ground with someone living a very different life to his own through videogames.
An interview with the Amsterdam prostitute might have been an article of value but it would have been of a different kind of value to the sort being investigated here.
Pancho | August 8, 2008 6:03 AM
Another "author" talking about something he knows nothing about.
Hypocrite moralists like you love to send the message that prostitutes are sad drug addicts that got into this out of "despair". Truth is, my friend, most of them love what they do, if not for anything else then just for the 10x more money they make than if they're putting up with some asshole boss in a 9 to 5 job.
I feel sorry for you as you're psychologically impotent to enjoy the sheer heaven that is to have sex with a professional.
And FYI, 400 euros is not the normal price. The girl probably didn't like the guys asking and wanted to get rid of them. It's usually 50 to 100 euros.
Ruben | August 8, 2008 6:24 AM
I find it rather disturbing that an amount of people cannot appreciate some musings not written in a deadpan tone for a change. It's a column, it involves games and it is brilliantly written.
Since when does one need to justify a personal view in a column to match a common view of morals?
Sciere | August 8, 2008 7:33 AM
It is not brilliantly written. It is flabby and indulgent.
"These nether streets, tendrils from the scarlet epicentre..." is not a poetic turn of phrase. It scans poorly and says nothing. It is the sort of thing one sees too much of when grading undergraduate essays of students who got As in high school and have no future in writing.
DJH | August 8, 2008 7:49 AM
Enjoyed it. Thanks for posting it up. Thanks more for not being a self-righteous douche and trying to save people.
Mrak | August 8, 2008 8:00 AM
Irony and putting everything in perspective is the most popular route in writing these days (on the internet). While it's fun, there's nothing wrong with some ambition every now and then. Those kind of sentences mentioned are sometimes needed to convey the intricacies of a scene, it can completely turn a piece around. I guess you wouldn't like the storytelling in a game like Braid either, with all those pompous words.
Sciere | August 8, 2008 8:00 AM
Those of you complaining about the pomposity of the writing are simply ignorant. Some people think that anything more literary than the pedestrian style of writing found in mainstream magazines is bloated. No, it's simply more thoughtful. Stop being lazy and stupid, please. This was a very good article and you'd be lucky to see such high quality writing more often in games journalism.
Slayve | August 8, 2008 8:35 AM
Excellent read. Great job, Simon!
Mister Raroo | August 8, 2008 9:50 AM
Thank you. It was a great article. Whether or not anyone agrees with your point of view, doesn't matter. What matters is the way in which you have expressed your thoughts, and the fact that all of us read it with rapt attention.
Paschelnavk | August 8, 2008 10:27 AM
Nice style, nice thesaurus, I hate the moralistic approach. Die and stop preaching already. If you care about people not being lazy - Give people information, opportunity to maka a choice, not a salvation, don't teach what is fuckin good or evil, coz you haven't lived your life yet, therefore you know only what you think you know, which is shit.
didn;t like it | August 8, 2008 11:12 AM
Great article, very well written. Just the fact that it appears on a video game site is great. Great work.
Bryant | August 8, 2008 12:23 PM
This comment section is cute.
Those that disapprove of the author's perceived "moral message" denounce him as pretentious. In reality, they only disagree with what they perceive as his agenda, but need something to fuel their ad hominem.
You guys are so cute when you're offended.
TrevorM | August 8, 2008 2:19 PM
So, from this "article" I take it that the only requirement to be published on GameSetWatch is being able to use a text editor?
Then I guess stuff like intelligent insight and field knowledge just went into the trashcan, huh?
Ed | August 8, 2008 2:33 PM
Once again comments helps bring the stupidity of the internet to the foreground... Sad, pathetic, and, well, sad.
At least do bother reading...
gnome | August 8, 2008 2:55 PM
Well conceived and written, Simon. Don't let the proles get you down (my guess is none of them have daughters).
Your article brings a level of insight sadly lacking from much of the games industry. I'd like to see this same outlook -- viewing women as people, as sisters and daughters rather than as dehumanized merchandise -- applied more broadly to games and the culture surrounding them. Consider the manic, sad photos of tubby guys taken with scantily clad booth babes (the only way these guys will get close to a woman like that?), or the selling point of "breast bounce" in many games. Really, we can do better.
Viewing people as people, and starting with the most transparently dehumanized among us, is a valuable step for us as an industry to take.
Alchemist | August 8, 2008 3:46 PM
good article!
It amuses me that there's so many people that feel the urge to bash an article because of their opinions. It's a little silly.
I really loved the way this was written and the view of that sort of area from an unclouded perspective is portrayed well.
Susan | August 8, 2008 4:20 PM
"It's a column, it involves games and it is brilliantly written."
No, it doesn't.
Robin | August 9, 2008 2:14 AM
Wow... with a bit of editing this guy could write a few best sellers. Love the way he shown perspective on the church in such a place as a judgmental figure of morality rather than a place of comfort and solace. I'm not religious but that really hits home. Its sad that people can be driven to such lows, or brought up so badly that they think this is the best they can do. Eventually, what is meant for some to be a place to find comfort and guidance becomes something that could make them feel guilty about who they are...
The guys grammar isn't the point, the message is, but I'm sure the people who argue at the authors insight either are too dumb to see it or are really just angry to find the same bitterness and low morality within themselves.
Deal with it and perhaps you'll 'get laid' by somebody who loves you someday...
Dave B | August 9, 2008 9:35 PM
Sad story but beautifully written. Pshaw with the naysayers here, I saw those streets and I saw those ladies. You took me there and I wanted to hug my sisters. Thank you for the touching and graphic piece.
jGrrl | August 9, 2008 10:20 PM
Oh, man. I really want to visit Amsterdam now.
hippo | August 10, 2008 4:47 AM
What this article portrays is that glass door. All this author can do is look from a distance and muse. There is no communication, no real attempt to understand. Just some random thoughts based on his own ideas and prejudices. As such, it doesn't tell us anything about the prostitutes, about their lives. It tells us a lot about the author, though.
Goo | August 10, 2008 4:55 AM
"In reality, they only disagree with what they perceive as his agenda, but need something to fuel their ad hominem"
Not necessarily correct: readers may disapprove of the agenda and/or the approach and be completely ok with author's figure. Besides, the argument can be reversed: maybe it is you, who tries fueling your ad hominem?
didn;t like it | August 10, 2008 5:06 AM
Man goes to Amsterdam for business. Sees prostitution. Was expecting it, but is still shocked.
Man has slight internal conflict over his moral sensibilities and inherited stereotypes of prostitution.
Man introspects. Stereotypes and moral standings are questioned, Man realises that his moral sensibilities are not fixed, stable and certain. This questioning makes Man uneasy. Previous Certainties are unstable. But Man is intellectual. Introspection and questioning is an enjoyable experience. Our oh-so thoroughly postmodern Man.
Man sees prostitute playing DS. Instrospective epiphany is reached. Man accepts his Postmodern condition. Moralities shall forevermore remain questioned. Stereotypes shall frowned upon. Man is open to the idea of accepting relative knowledges - multiple yet simulatneous discourses.
Man emerges as self-aware Postmodern intellectual.
After the break:
Part 2: In which our Man - that postmodern intellecutual - realises that such pseudo-poetic musings on such epiphanic moments are irritatingly cliched, thoroughly condescending to those that Man proclaims to write about and to those who read, realises that the Piece is about nothing other than himself, and ashamed by such solipsistic ramblings maintains that he will here-on attempt to engage with The Other and Difference rather than descending into introspective masturbation.
Cooper | August 10, 2008 8:34 AM
Isn't it really just a cute story about how a common interest in videogames unexpectedly humanised a hooker?
As far as I can tell no morals were questioned in the making of the story.
Anyhow, I bet you feel a whole lot better for getting that bitter rant out Cooper!
John W | August 10, 2008 9:54 AM
Sometimes it's good to be reminded that most of the people who share one of your hobbies are idiots. It helps maintain humility. Thanks, GSW comments section!
B. | August 10, 2008 10:43 AM
Do any of you guys leaving bad comments actually know what life is like for some protitutes?
Here is a little story;
An 18 year old girl gets herself pregnant having a little fun in the teenage years.
Father of the kid runs off leaving the kid to grow up never knowing who he was.
The girl meets a new guy who is an addict. Not really seeing where her future is going. Girl starts on 'soft' drugs and finds shes having fun, isn't thinking long term and the habit gets a grip on her.
Meanwhile the kid suffers in many forms, and is taken in by his grandparents.
Girl has another kid, which grows up with her in that environment.
Meanwhile the girl, now 25 is moving onto harder drugs...
Another few years down the line, now living in a rough neighbourhood cos its the only place she can afford, the girl is so stuck on the habit, and now also has a low life addict for a boyfriend to support, that she turns to prostitution to fund the habit and his...
Few more years down the line her first kid, now 13, develops lukaemia... shes too messed up to care and doesn't visit him once in the 3 years hes in and out of hospital...
Her second kid gets taken off her and is put into care aged 8, shes already smoking and hasn't been to school once...
She eventually breaks up with that boyfriend of hers and meets a different guy.
She has 2 more kids that are taken from her at birth and adopted.
The first kid now 23 doesn't really know how to feel about all of it anymore. He doesn't really want to think about it after years of trying to forget it all, but she gets intouch and she wants to see her family again...
Couple of months go by while hes finishing off a semester at college and he doesn't think about it too much but its there in his mind...
A couple more days later, a policeman knocks at his door. Shes had a brain hemorrhage due to the lifestyle shes been leading, collapsed and died a couple of hours later in hospital...
She never got to see her family again...
She was somebody's daughter and sister too.
Thats a true story that i can vouch for. And I'm sure a lot of prostitutes will have an equally tragic tale of desperation or getting lost at an early age to tell...
D. | August 10, 2008 11:47 PM
It's a thing you can think about with every woman. It could be your/is someone's daughter, sister or mother.
No doubt about it that The Red Light District has its share of women who have been sat there not out of free will. Now don't argue me on the free will subject. I will just say that some have been trafficked there from Eastern Europe.
All that said, why didn't the author ask her which game she was playing and ask her how much it would be to go head to head if it was such a game. That would have been a break for her.
Beat | August 11, 2008 9:33 AM
Good point but I believe she was in a building behind a window, and he was in the street looking in as he passed by.
D. | August 13, 2008 9:10 AM
"No poetic significance for a sentimental writer to heavy-handedly wring" sounds about right.
The piece is very floridly written and I certainly recognize the talent behind it, yet the tone throughout is unbearably haughty. The imagery, while highly evocative in its prose, merely attempts to distract from the lack of a narrative. It reads like a padded out creative writing assignment when it's clear the margins won't bear much further strain.
It's worth noting the mysterious figure you imbue with such menace is most likely paid security guard. Far from being some abusive superior, he was mostly likely her employee.
"Who knows? Who cares?" Evidently, you didn't care to perceive these women as being capable, independent individuals who run a business of their own volition beholden to regulation by the state.
These individuals skulk in the shadows to ensure the belligerent and disruptive elements you focused solely upon move along lest the safety of the women be compromised.
Indeed, you focus on the most overtly misogynistic louts in spite of their relatively small presence in proportion to the overall pedestrian traffic. The milling crowds of the curious and aroused do, surprisingly, include many tourists such as yourself. In fact, it is not uncommon to come across whole families sightseeing together.
These people, under the influence of neither alcohol nor drugs, seem to escape your notice... and evidently lack your keen olfactory perception of desperation. It's a shame your eyesight wasn't as sharp as your sense of smell.
Hughley | August 16, 2008 1:00 AM
The writer merely put his thoughts and his point of view down in writing to express his opinion to others to the best of his ability. Thats all anyone can ask of a writer.
You don't have to agree with it and if you don't like something about it, theres no need to mouth off over it. Not everyone will look at the same object or situation and see the same thing.
D. | August 16, 2008 4:16 PM